"The Method of Science, the Aim of Religion"

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Projects: Scrying:

"Pranayama and Contemplation"
by Frater D.E.I.
"A Pranayama-induced series of visions between the dates of March 9 and March 17, 2009"

[ Introduction |
Day 1 | Day 2 | Day 3 |
Day 4 | Day 5 | Day 6 |
Day 7 | Day 8 | Day 9 |
Conclusion ]

Introduction

During March 9th while in contemplation I fell into a Trance of sorts which lead to fantastic visual stimulation. The days between March 9th and the 17th were filled with a group of visions that would only follow after sticking with the apporpiate method which lead me to the initial vision on the 9th of March. At times I veered away from this method only to find I had no success (see the two attempts on March 16th). The formula to this "method" which led me to receive these vision, in a nutshell, was this:

First I Banish by the "LBRP" and then recite an Adoration to the Lord of the Universe, which can be found here:

[reproduced here:

Face East. Say: "Holy art Thou, Lord of the Universe!"
(Give the Projection Sign.)
Say: "Holy art Thou, whom Nature hath not formed!"
(Give the Projection Sign.)
Then say: "Holy art Thou, the Vast and the Mighty One!"
(Give the Projection Sign.)
Finally say: "Lord of the Light, and of the Darkness!"
(Give the Sign of Silence.)]

I now go into my Asana (half-lotus) and begin Pranayama. Currently I am doing 15 in through both nostrils, 30 hold, 10 out through mouth, repeat. I do this until I am in an altered state of mind (this can happen as quick as 20min or can take up to 47min) this state of mind usually consists of the same symptoms experienced during insomnia (body distortion, things are "far away", etc).

This is where the method veers a little, although it always includes contemplation of some sort. The first few times I have read a short Chapter in The Book of Lies immediately after my Pranayama exercise, once I read the first chapter of Eight Lectures on Yoga, and lately I have been contemplating a Mantra. The point is: engage in some sort of mental work, or intellectual study and contemplate it. I then lay back in the Hanged Man posture while contemplating "X" and Will myself to understand it. In John St. John I never understood why Crowley would switch about his Asana and lay down while "willing Adonai", but I think I catch the idea behind this manner of operating now. I slowly begin to fall into trance, lose my sense of self and begin to experience visions.

Following are my edited diary entries of this time period. Any text in brackets [] are notes that I have included after reading through these entries a second time, or are simple spelling corrections. I would also like to note that when I enter material into my diary I record it immediately after whatever it is I was doing, I don't sit down at the end of the day and write everything down at once like some people do. This is the only way I can look at my practices to see what I did without clouding my view with later experiences. I hope that some of you may find use of these entires, possibly helping some come into "contact" with the same experiences I did during this recorded week.

Pranayama and Contemplation

March 09, 2009 e.v. : Sol 19° Pisces, Luna 5° Virgo Dies Lunæ

• Received templates for my Tablets in the mail from C**** off Myspace. They look nice will start painting later [this was my intention but never got around to it]
• Finished reading Book Four Part II [for the 8th time]
• First Resh [morning adoration]
• R[esh] [Noon adoration]
• R[esh] afternoon
• L. B. R. P.
• Adoration to Lord of The Universe. Reading the Cicero's take on this and I can't understand why this would "replace" Resh at any time.
• Meditation 53min
  • Asana: Half Lotus
  • Subject: Breath (10-25-10-0)
• Read Class A [it was Cheth]
  

• Strangest thing happened I must document this to the best I can remember of it [horrible typing will follow].
  • 1. After I sat down on my bed a rush of an[t]i-energy hit me, I was so tired I could hardly take it and had to lay down.
  • 2. My eyes almost felt forced shut at one po[in]t and I don't know how long I struggling in and out of Sleep paralysis but it must have been a good 10min before I finnaly came back by wiggling my toes.
  • 3. I fell back asleep and entered what I dare to call a "Trance" and a surge of energy came over me, my heart speed up, my head became filled with ec[stacy] and I also felt fear at the same time [probably because I had no idea what was happening].
  • 4. Lights were dancing all around me against my eye-lids, cones of light were entering my field of vision from everywhere and they came in pairs of 3. A latern type instrument was in the distance and as I tried to "zoom in" on it m[y] eyes could not focus and eventually it disappeared from my view. The cones stopped but there was still light everywhere and it changed it's color, brightness, shape, etc almost every second. I felt a feeling of love come over me and I had an **** at one point and then I fell back into SP[sleep paralysis] which I could not get out of, I became scared and seen two men behind me [in vision] and smelled a burning smell.
  • 5. Once I was out of this state I could still see, against the black of my room, lights everywhere, swirling, cones, triangles, and dots they did not cease until I turned the lights on to record this.
  • 6. I banished and recorded.
• Confusion, so I looked in 777 and wrote down correspondences [at conclusion] that came to mind [some of these are a stretch as you will soon see].
  

• B. R. H. x2 with Sleep Paralysis on my mind

March 10, 2009 e.v. : Sol 20° Pisces, Luna 19° Virgo Dies Martis

• Colored Earth and Air tablets for new Enochian Temple.
• Bad health today, only 1 M[ethadone] left so I skipped my dose, feeling ill.
  

• Invoked Earth by the Hexegram while hanging finished Earth Tablet up. Pesperation [due to being sick] decided to take a half M[ethadone] to settle me down before I perform my Pranayama or else persperation may become intolerable.
  

• Medication working at 4:08pm
• L. B. R. P.
• Adoration [To The Lord of The Universe]
• Meditation 36min
  • Asana: Half Lotus
  • Subject: Breath (15-30-10-0)
• Contemplation on The Book of Lies C[hp] 5 "Battle of The Ants" in Hanged Man Position as told to do last night, Willed to understand the chapter without reading commentary.
• Sleep Paralysis as before, this time I expected it and went with it. I was in a small tunnel going towards a pin prick of light, the light around me [in the tunnel] looked like living fireflies of bright yellow tinted light and seemed to enter me when I passed through them. The pin prick dissapeared behind me and I seen the number 486 flash in front of me and I looked down to myself riding a Horse made of blue almost soft [cotton I would describe it as] material, lights everywhere then blackness. I came out of paralysis and opened my eyes and a image of the horse popped into my head, it was now dead and bleeding a tye dye like mess of colors next to a very large cactus. [ I felt a bad Headache all night after this, and persperation continued even after taking my dose].
  

• Decided to look into 777 and record information. [included at the bottom in the "Conclusion]
  

• Woke up at 11pm and could not sleep, clammy hands stayed up until 4:00 when I went to the clinic to get my new RX filled.
  
  

March 11, 2009 e.v. : Sol 21° Pisces, Luna 3° Libra Dies Mercurii

• Received ****
• Stopped daily Resh
  

• L. B. R. P. Adoration [To The Lord of The Universe] Meditation 21min
  • Asana: Half Lotus
  • Subject: Breath (15-30-10-0)
• Contemplation on Liber B Vel Magi in H[anged] M[an]
• There was very little as far as "the vision" is concerned. Flying discs of numerous colors, still no sound, dis[sassociation] from Pran[ayama] didn't carry over very well. I observed my Will was not up to par and "bailed" early [only 7 min].
• L. B. R. P. + B. R. H.
  

• 8 Val[ium] before bed.

March 12, 2009 e.v. : Sol 19° Pisces, Luna 4° Virgo Dies Lunæ

• Liber AL Chp. II
• Worked on WT [Water Tablet; was painting one for about an hour]
  

• L. B. R. P.
• Adoration [To The Lord of The Universe]
• Meditation 43min
  • Asana: Half Lotus
  • Subject: Breath (15-30-10-0) Tried to Inhale through one nostril, hold, exhale through the other got confused after about 10 minutes and switched back to what I am confortable with. Became D[isoassociated] quite quickly [I would say probably 25min into practice], left hand began to feel very large in my other hand, head felt swollen, body became tingly and seen "spots" on eyes. [Was burning leftover Ceder Incense during meditation.]
  
  

• It is right now 8:27 (Sol 22 Pisces, Luna 17 Libra). After Pranayama I set down to read Eight Lec on bed, became tired during first chapter laid down in H[anged] M[an] with the first chapter firmly on my mind, in a sort of contemplation about Union as a whole [also was relating it to Chap II of Liber AL which I read earlier that day] and slowly started to fall "asleep", although this was nothing like sleep and more like "trance" [I haven't been in many "trances" so I felt strange about picking this word to define the experience] my body became seized with paralysis and I felt as though I couldn't breathe, fear stopped me from "Projection" which is exactly what my mind felt it should do. Swiftly after I was forced back into paralysis and at this time I seen a Rose with a stem made of bleeding light, which was bleeding into [what looked like] rays from the sun, and then an Asian looking woman [profile view] smiled at me and raised 3 fingers up then turned around and disappeared from view, more light, very pronounced red triangle with 2 dots connecting bottom line "out of view", then light as if there were people with flashlights looking for me lost in a dark room [this is how it looked, not how I felt] at this point I came out of the paralysis but could still hold the vision even though my heart and mind were racing with [what felt like] a thousand thouhts. I actually opened my eyes at one point to pull the pillow over my face [light was coming in from a window so I wanted to see if anything changed when I was in complete darkness]. Swirling green and purple dots and triangles ending in a "solid" mass of blue, tried to Neo [The Sign of The Enterer] into mass but could not. This mass of colored stayed like this for a few minutes [I would say no more than 3 minutes] then I opened my eyes assuming nothing else was going to be experienced.

March 13, 2009:  Sol 23° Pisces, Luna 2° Scorpio Dies Veneris

• Woke up from strange dream in the middle of the night where a crow visited me and simply said "you could have saved her". I then started thinking if I am losing it, maybe all those "bums" I see are simply people who were at one time trying to attain. Apophis strikes again, seems like MY formula is IAAAAAAAAIAAAIAAAAAIAAAA....no O. [430ish am]
  

• L. B. R. P. [upon waking]
• Adoration to The Lord of The Universe
• Meditated 25 minutes
  • Asana: Half Lotus
  • Subject: Breath (15-30-10-0)
• Contemplation upon Liber Tzaddi started at 6:07 am, H[anged] M[an] will record after.
• Usual "falling" feeling with tunnels of light at onset [usually these occur afterwards]. I was taken through the clouds on some string [it seemed at the time to be like an imbelical cord of sorts] was dropped upon the sky looking down at the ocean and a house in the middle of it. Possible Enochian writing in the red clouds [clouds were actually red spots above me] can't make them out [never was able to]. I lose the house and see 4 spinning discs of purple and blue  upon the blackness of my eyelids. End with dizzy feeling, no par[alysis].
  

• Invocation by Israfel
• Created and consecrated new Pentacle for temple space.
• Pran[ayama] @ : Purakam=30 Kumbhakham=40 Rekakam=18 [attempted 20] for 17 cycles.
• C/\ before sleep. [Contemplation upon Fire Triangle]

March 14, 2009:  Sol 24° Pisces, Luna 15° Scorpio Dies Saturnii

• Read DuQuette's book about the Thoth.
  

• Pran[ayama] @ : Purakam=30 Kumbhakham=40 Rekakam=15 for 5 cycles with O2, attempted same for 5 cycles with N20 [Nitrous], very strange feeling. [Metal crickets!]
• L. B. R. P. + B. R. H.
• Meditated 32 minutes
  • Asana: Half Lotus
  • Subject: Breath (15-30-10-0)
• Contemplation upon The Rose Cross [as described by DuQuette, not the Rose Cross formula]
• Attempting to not lay down in H[anged] M[an] position, instead will try to perform Liber Israfel.
• No vision to record.
  

• Dis[association] from V[alium] 50mg and S[oma] 3t[ablets] with VIII [solo sexual act] while willing for new visions for next day. No Banish.

March 15, 2009:  [did not record]

• No Banish for morning. [Because of the previous nights operation]
• Meditated 21 minutes
  • Asana: Half Lotus
  • Subject: Breath (15-30-10-0) Dis[association] came quickly, along with "spots" and "spirals".
• Contemplation Ch[apter] 13 of Book of Lies. Burn Sandal [incense].
• Lay down in H[anged] M[an] while "willing" [to understand whatever it is I am contemplating]
• Sleep paralysis started quick [could not let go], vision began very slow [10min?]. An Egg forms in front of me of usual colors [purple, blue, greens] cannot 1=10 [Sign of The Enterer] into it, it divides into 2 eggs which then turn into 3 and a blinding light takes form from the blackness. 2 flames [looked like Yod] come out of the middle egg which is now very bright can smell the Sandal I lit earlier, brings me back, lose Eggs and "wake up" from trance. Feel very scared for no good reason after vision.
• Invoke Luna for help with Astral body so that I may be able to 1=10 into the Vision next time without an issue.
• L. B. R. P.

March 16, 2009 e.v. : Sol 26° Pisces, Luna 8° Sagittarius Dies Lunæ

• L. B. R. P. (1am) [early morning of the 16th only a few hours after Luna Invocation]
• Adoration To Thoth
• Consecration of Temple Space by the formula given in the Z2 documents. [The Golden Dawn Z2 documents which can be found in Regardies big black book.]
• Liber Israfel. [The way I work Liber Israfel is to perform the first section of it in Malkuth, then during the following 3 sections (up until you proclaim you are Thoth) I work my way up the Tree of Life from Yesod, to Netzach, to Hod, then finally to Tipareth. When reaching Tipareth I assume the Godform of Thoth and proceed with the rest of the Invocation as if I were Thoth looking down the Tree of life to my "physical body" in Malkuth. When the Invocation is done I desecend back down the Tree and banish in Malkuth. I go "home".]
• Contemplation on a few entries in the Tao
• Other than the usual boost of energy and persperation there is nothing to record.
• A final Adoration to Thoth, and a "Thanksgiving" [Eucharist and an Prayer].
  

• Meditated 57min [3pm next aftertoon]
  • Asana: Half Lotus
  • Subject: Breath (20-30-15-0)
• Contemplation upon The Hermit card of the Thoth deck and it's C[orrespondences].
• Decided to look into scrying mirror instead of assume H[anged] M[an] posture and fall into Trance.
• As with the I[nvocation of Israfel] this did little for [Vision] and still no Aud[itory] knowledge being passed down from whom ever it is who wishes me to take this information.
• The only vision I did get was what appeared to be a crocodile [this almost looked like crappy clip-art being pushed against my Scrying Mirror] or alligator which only held for a second or two. Dis[association] from Pranayama was very extreme, yet no vision to speak of. [I now assume that the Pranayama may not be as responsible as I had thought for any of the imagery.]
  

• Meditated 13min
  • Asana: Half Lotus - 1 break because of pain in neck
  • Subject: Breath (20-30-15-0)
• Pran[ayama] @ : Purakam=30 Kumbhakham=40 Rekakam=18 [attempted 20] for 15 cycles.
  

• B. R. H.
• Valium before sleep, horrible sleep. [this was recorded during the morning after]
  
  

March 17, 2009 e.v. : Sol 27° Pisces, Luna 20° Sagittarius Dies Martis

• I have been looking through 777 since 10[am] to start putting my vision together. The only thing that makes sense as far as the visual images go is the Hermit Card and a few TAU correspondeces.
• Posting to OC to see if anyone has anything to say about said Visions. I am horrid with Gematria.
  

• Stressed due to lack of money and waiting for app new Apartment. Must deconstruct my Temple AGAIN! IAAAAAAAAA.....
  

• Meditated 29 minutes
  • Asana: Half Lotus
  • Subject: Equal Armed Cross and 4-fold-breath - tons of breaks in the Cross. It kept moving around, from one plane to another, and when it would stay still it would grow into a larger size.
    

• Asking for a message of some sort, almost praying [pathetic]. Not enough corrage this time around to make it through [this is when I first started to assume it may be an initiation through TAU].
• I will continue tomorrow, no I Will continue tomorrow.
  

• Begin to Mem[orize] "The Invocation of Horus" for the 20th Equinox S[olo] Op[eration] planned for midnight of the 20th.
  

• Invocation of Luna by Hexagram in the appropriate hours.

Conclusion

The work the took place between March 9th and the 17th at first seemed to hold little advice, or practical knowledge outside of "a method which gives visual stimulation". On the 17th there was an intense amount of study and contemplation that went into figuring out what this all meant and how to use it. This contemplation was done in the same way as before, and although it was not visual, or auditory in nature there was still a good amount of information that impressed itself upon my brain.This, in my eyes, was still to be considered a "vision" but not one where I see marvolous things with my Astral eyes, but one in which all theoretical information bombarded itself upon me within a short period of 13 minutes.

I studied for hours the various notes, diary entries, and 777 correspondences I collected between the dates in questions and had come to the conclusion during this 13 minute climax that this could only be explained as an Initiation of sorts, and one that I did not (in my own eyes) pass. It was an opening to Tau (if I am correct about the imagery, and the message) and the strengthening of my "Body of Light", it would seem that I did not reach the condition needed to continue any further. I was suppose to let go during certain periods of the trance state when sleep paralysis would take hold, and more times than not I would force myself away from it. I am used to sleep paralysis, I have used it in the past to successfully work with my Body of Light, the difference is that I am comfortable using it if I am prepared but if it is forced upon me I freak out and bring myself back.

I compared the imagery with The Hermit card and found similarities in both the colors, and the nature of the visions as a whole. The Hermit is attributed to Mercury, and Thoth which are the heights of intellectual study and is assigned the "powers" of "Invisibility, Parthenogenesis, Initiation (?)". The number 486 in Gematria can mean "Foundation" "A Name of God" and a slew of other meanings that do not concern us at this point. Other imagery I can only attribute to the 32nd path of TAU: The Crocodile of the final Vision, and the Sleep Paralysis which always produces (for me) fantastic Astral results. I may be putting myself to "low upon the Tree" but I feel as if this is where I am meant to be and have more to learn before I can continue. I have since continued the method in hopes that I can receive more information, and possibly a chance to go through this process again and find myself at the other end of TAU. Time will tell.